i tried to be perfect but nothing was worth it, i dont believe this makes me real. - sum 41
2:32 p.m. x 2004-12-29
wow! its been that long since ive written in this thing, geeze. so wat has been goin on in the last month or so thats been interesting....
sadies was soo much fun. we played in the snow in the morinig and mike wanted to bring my board. we were rinding on the hills where everone was sleding, lol. oh, and we got stuck in the snow on the way up there too. came back, got ready, took pics at kristin's house and went to BJ's to eat. soo good! went to the dance and stayed there for a while. i had more fun at the dance 2 years ago prolly cuz we were there forever but ne wayz. then went to the fourm shops and had a scavenger hunt, omg, so friggin funny and we recorded the whole thing. then went back to brynn's house, had hot chocolate and watched all of the stupis stuff that we just did. and when everyone was finally home i got back around 2am! i was so tired but it was a good nite.
lil while afterwards diane had a christmas party that was a lot of fun. me andrea and kelli were like the only ones doin the damn thang but we had a good time. and a bunch of ppl left early and after a while some ppl showed up late and we all found out that 3 of the ppl the left got in a car accident. great! no one was hurt but the cars were pretty bad, they shouldnt have left...and b4 we all had to leave we played kissing rugby, soo fun, and i ended up getting kissed by mike!! im soo into this guy but i knw that he doesnt like me like that it if sucks soo much!! plus he looks like hes with kara ne wayz but still i want wat i cant have. can i ever get a break just once!?!
ummm my friend ashley's band played at the benefit show and kicked butt. they were soo good and after that the show sucked but i didnt pay to get in so it was all good. riley was nice enough to take me home and we had a nice talk bout wat hes been up to. i havent really talked to him since sophmore year so it was nice. also had to opportunity to hook up with him when i got home but decided not to, idiot, gosh! i prolly should have cuz i could've.
and chrismas was great! got a lot of good stuff and the shopping afterwards was really good me, krispy and my mom prolly spent over $200 each and got a whole bunch of stuff for our money. oh, that sunday we all went to logndale to see tyler waite talk in church cuz hes gonna be leaving to go on his mission in hawaii, lucky. so i got to see all the ppl i grew up with in north town and its always a good time. did i mention that all the guys now r really hott!! i luv austin and bryce! now when ever we all get together we all always wonder if we would have ever dated each other if we still lived in the same area. we'll never knw though. and bryce is goin to unlv and is actually livein on charelston and durango, soo close, and i got his number so we could hang out some time.
today is krispy's 19th berfday!! wow almost 20...we're getting old. and mine is next and i cant wait. she's gonna take me to get the industrial piercing cuz she got that thing in her ear pierced, dont knw wat its called, and the parentals dont knw bout it...yet. haha we keep sayin that we're rebelling and plus we're not gonna keep it in forever so we wanna enjoy it while we're in our youth. she punched in some 14G plugs in my ears the other day and my right one hurt like a mother!! cuz i wanna keep my holes open but i hate regular ear rings. this way i can keep something in that not gonna come off and is comfortable. i thing they look good and again the parentals dont knw either....yet.
and on new years there's a dance that im gonna go to and its gonna be a lot of fun. hot guys, dancin, friends, good times, good times! the last time i went to one of those i was drinkin w/glb b4 i went and i had a blast, lol, but i dont do that stuff ne more and im tryin to be good. and believe it or not i have a lot of fun w/all the lds kids. last week i went ovet to kristin's house and there was a bunch of ppl there and we played games and just hung out. it was a lot of fun but its hard cuz i didnt grow up w/ne of them and now im tryin to jump into a different click. hoping that they'll continue to include me and wanna start new friendships. it always seems like im looking for acceptance from everyone cuz all i ever want is to have a place where i fit in and belong.
geeze, sry that this is getting really long but its been a while. plus its not like ne one else really reads this ne wayz so wat ev's. and im thinkin bout hangin up the cleets after hs ball is over. im soo tired and im starting to get back problems. im also tryin to be realistic bout wat i wanna do for the future and so far playin ball for the next 4 years isnt wat i wanna do. its gonna save a lot of money for me to not play in the summer too. its just gonna be soo hard to tell chris that im not comin back....i dont wanna have to do that.
im not sure wat else to say that been goin on. oh, we got new uniforms this year that friggin taylor picked out and they r soo UGLY!! OMG, and everyone else does too. the only reason that she was able to was cuz of daddy's money. AAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWW!!!!!! i friggin hate her and her brown nose dad. ditto asked me wat to do for sweats and thank god she did or else we would have ended up with pink one or sumthin. i swear im gonna tell that grl off this year. no one else pushes my buttons as bad as her. she's so fake and loud and chubby and aawww such a poser lil gossip drama queen w/her funky nose and fake orange tan!!! i could prolly continue but im just gonna get even more frustrated.
so that all for now
LUV ALL MY FRIENDS!! XOXO MUAH!!
FALLIN AND WANTIN MIKE PERRY EVERY DAY!! MUAH!! <3