hold on... if u feel like letting go. hold on...it gets better that u know. dont stop looking yr one step closer. dont stop seaching its not over....hold on! - good charlotte
7:04 p.m. x 2003-12-28
its been a really really long time since ive written n e thing. not since i got in trouble.
well...still under house arrest and it sucks really really big balls too!!! cant go n e where, see n e one, no phone and just plain bored to death. all ive done is sat around my house. the only good thing that happened is that i got to see alex on tuesday. i was trying to catch her b-ball game at sv but i was late and didnt even see her play. but her mom said that it was probably a good thing that i missed the game cuz they lost and sucked that game too. owell, i still got to hang around my friend and i saw the brand new crib too. it was nice but still a little messy frm the move. and alex has a view of the whole city frm her bed room window. so i got to have sum fun for about 3 hours. whoopdie friggin doo!!
i had a pretty good x-mas though. got about $260 bucks and blew it all the next day shoppin. but i still got every thing that i wanted to get with my money. new DC shoes that r hella tight, west coast chopper hoodie, my volcom jacket, tanks, one fox and one hurley long sleeve t, 2 pairs of pants, cute undies, make up frm benefit and some black socks that i got suckered into buying when i got my shoes. and i got my yellowcard cd frm alex, a silver necklace w/my initials on them, a ring frm my mexican grandma, a cd case that can be run over by a car and not get crushed and i dunno what else. the stuff that i got frm the parentals wasnt a lot cuz we got money instead. all in all i was happy. but i would be a lot more happy if i could go out and do something.
today was my cousins 18th b-day and at 7 in the morning her friends kid napped her and took her to breakfast at the original pancake house. it was soo good too but we still could have gone at like 8:30 and still have had a good time. and i was hoping that she would have gone out and done something tonite cuz i could have gotten out of the house to go do what she was doing. i suggested goin to the beach but obviously she isnt going n e where. DAMN IT!! the only good thing was that i didnt have to go to church cuz of the whole breakfast deal this morning. and im PRAYING TO GOD that i can go out on new years eve!!!!!! and so far the only way that i can is if i go to the mormon dance at the logne mt. stake center. yay, not. im trying to spent the nite at alex's cuz 1. i was invited to and 2. alex was gonna go to a party at a friends house where they have drinks and i can do it if i want to and not have to worry about going home. and we could watch the fire works frm the strip frm alex's room. plus her parents r having a party at the house and if we dont want to go we can just hang out at her house but with no drinks, no biggie.
if i were to go to the dance i would call some one to come get me then bring me back b4 i have to get picked up again. OMG!! y does my mom have to be a bitch about the whole thing. she is the only one that still has a problem cuz my dad sure doesnt. hes the one who drove me out to sv to see alex.
krispy is gonna be 18 tomorrow!! scary, i know but good for her. she can do what she wants now. i cant wait till my berfday!! alex was gonna buy me a ticket to go to a concert but one of her other friends bought her a ticket to go see another concert for her x-mas present. that would have been awesome if we were to go though. none of my friends has ever done somethin like that for me, or should i say WAS going to do that 4 me. i still might be able to go to a concert though. linkin park and simple plan r gonna be playin concerts on feb 20. just need to pick one. probably linkin park cuz i can mash. lol ya rite!! i would probably die and get stepped on all over. but i still hope that my friends will do sometnin kool 4 me on my berfday. just dont be kid napping or n e thing like that. ill be pissed if they do.
i still get a hold of my phone and i heard my messages. thanks glb and im trying to keep my chin up. im holding my tounge around my mom and trying to be all good and happy so that i can get off house arrest sooner. i still gots yr present so come on over and get it woman!! yr gonna like it. and r u gonna start working tomorrow or what!?! did they talk to the doctor yet? i miss ya grl and need to see ya soon. luv ya babe!! xoxo
well, need to go cuz my friggin mom is pissin me off and is walkin in and out of the room. damn this was a long one.
I LUV ALL OF YA SOO SOO MUCH AND HOPE TO SEE ALL OF U SOON ONE OF THESE DAYS WHEN I CAN!! XOXO
parents just dont understand. no...my dad is kool but my mom FUCKING SUCKS!!